You told me again  stay away from you…

You told me again never call and message you….

You told me again so many bad words…..

I was hurt and broken again….

How many times I told myself not to care again for you…

How many times i told myself i should forget and leave you…

And then again you making moves for me to come back running to you again…

And then after… you dumped me again…

I’m tired playing your game….You didn’t feel anything how much you are hurting me…

I am trying to forget everything about you…I am trying to believe that there will never be you and me…

This time I am trying to forget you…chances playing us…I always saw you…looking to me from afar… I always saw you stop and looking from me from afar….

If you can never love me…Why your heart looking for me?

If you never need me..Why you stop and looking for me?

Only God knows…In his perfect time

 

How many times I told myself….I will not fall again….

I will not answer your messages…

I will ignore all your calls….

Because you hurt me too much…. you didn’t feel the same feelings i have for you…

You are very insensitive….You only want me when the times You feel you needed me….

Then after….You will ignore me again…

Again…You needed me.. And I hate myself because I keep running back to you…

I cannot ignore your messages…

I cannot ignore your calls…

I am running just to be with you….

Until when? I don’t know….

Maybe until my heart beating for you…Maybe until ….you giving me hope that maybe 

Someday…There’s Only Me and you…..

 

 

 

 

Yes…I have loved you so fast that I can no longer pause and stop…

I have loved you so much that I make you my world…

I have loved you that I forget you cannot love me back…

I have loved you without any boundaries…

I have loved you and dreamed of you…

But now….I regret that I have loved you…

You are the only person who breaks my heart….and telling bad things in front of me despite that I haved love you…now I become cold….my heart freeze for you….now my heart not beating for you…

And in time I know…even our path will cross…I will never look back

I’m trying to forget all the time we laugh together..

I’m trying to forget how you smile at me and looking so deep that my heart feels….

I’m trying to forget how you will secretly hold my hands…

I’m trying to forget how you secretly care for me…

I’m trying to forget how you become so sweet and suddenly become cold….

I’m trying to forget how it feels to become so nervous whenever you are near me…

I’m trying not to care…

But still feelings are the same…even I’m trying…

You’ve thought me that man cannot be forced to love someone he don’t like….

You’ve thought me not to love someone who will never love  you back…

You’ve thought me not to miss someone who will never remember you…

You’ve thought me to go on with my life without you…

You’ve thought me to wait patiently until time will come you will remember me…

You’ve thought me to accept that there will never be you and me…

You’ve thought me to hold on even you letting me go…

You’ve thought me to love and care for someone who will never do the same…

Most of all you’ve thought me to love myself more…..

I wanted to tell you that it’s OK that suddenly you don’t like me…

I wanted to tell you that I  am used to it…

I am used that sometimes..you looking for me….you make me feel wanted….

But most of the time unwanted….

How many times I play your game…yes I am thinking that you only want to play…even  I want to feel you are not..

The moment that you make me feel wanted are the memories I will treasure  forever… I hope someday… You will look for me and want me again…..

I have loved you for no reasons at all…

I have loved you from a far that no one will ever know…

I have loved you like you are mine…even I know you will never be mine…

I have loved you even I know in the end you will break my heart…

I have loved you that even you don’t know how much I love you…

You Make my heart alive and complete….

How I wish I didn’t loved you….

So I will never feel broken again….so I will never hope again. …So I will never hope that there’s me and you someday….so I will stop dreaming of you….So I will not think of you….so I will not Wait and longing for you…..But now….I’m saying goodbye to you….I’m saying goodbye to all the feelings I have felt for you…I am saying goodbye to the one who I wish were mine….

I was broken….yes…that time I feel broken…that my heart is in soo much pain…that I am feeling  to give up..I am losing hope…

Then you showed up in my dream…unexpectedly…and telling me…I am here…I will never leave you….

I never expected nor think that I will dream of you..

Since then…I hold on to your promise that you will never leave me…it’s only for myself…you never know…and maybe you will never knew…

My broken heart slowly  stitching on his own…day by day you make me feel inspired and happy…but you never knew…

We started talking…small talks that means  so much to me…

We started laughing….and makes my heart beats so fast….but you never knew…you are the reason why my heart heals fast…you are the reason of my everyday existence that time…you give sunlight to my darkest day…I was inspired by you….but you never knew…

 

 

In silence no one can hear me whispering I love you…

In silence no one can feel me how much I’m longing for you…

In silence I can dream of you…

In silence I can remember how we kiss..

How you hold my hand…how you make me laugh…how you make me feel that you also loving me in silence….

Thanks for joining me!

Good company in a journey makes the way seem shorter. — Izaak Walton